im alrite.

so my last post made some ppl worried. actually now as i look at it, i feel worried.bahaya bahaya, jgn homesick.huhhu.bukan boleh naik kete kelisa n be back home in 15mins like when i was in ridzuan.

just that that nite, i was probably stressed.exam coming.and the ongoing PBL.kena baca new things for PBL +revision for MED sci , prof practice ,public health yg 'dicintai' + musculoskeleton + assignment PH..SOOO there's heaps to cover.takutttt. and the system here is they use the bell curve thingy, d lowest 15% of population will FAIL.n failing is not good. is never good here in newcastle, because you'll have to repeat the sem, next yr.next yr kot! gile la.

anyways eventhough i sound psychotic up there, im now more calm. so nik, jgn risau.i'll call you when i top up 4 international call.

i guess this is the part and parcel that comes along with studying medicine. no doubt is so interesting learning about the body n stuff but hey, come the exam season, you can just feel the pressure and tension being around any med student.that conversation about have you started studying, how much you have covered n blablabla will arise. Like yesterday, i was at the com in the library when a course mate, jason(not real name) started to talk about exam and how worried he was about failing. since at that time i had just calmed myself down about the exam, my heart was shouting "can u pls shut uppp??!". haihhhh.

nways, the most soothing voice that you'll want to hear when u are stressed is your MUM's. (yes yes here i go again about mother. ok, i admit, im anak manja..bluekk..:P)

so i called home that nite, complaining to sara n sara told me to sleep.hahaha.tiru advice umi.
and then i talked to umi. n i couldnt hide it. i told her how low n bad i felt. then she said

"bukan senang nak jadi senang"

and eventhough i have heard her say it before, that was what i just needed to hear again. mmg bukan senang. it takes sweat and blood to be successful. to be someone respectable.and then i remembered all the ppl back home that have been supporting me.and yes, it triggered all the msges i got before going to airport. and also the threat from someone who actually wrote "u jgn balik smp u jadi doctor!" ahhahah.

and like my dad ke i read it once somewhere,

"you need to wait for the rain to see the rainbow"

atau dlm Bm nya, bersusah2 dahulu bersenang2 kemudian.

and oh yes, i like how my mum would add n say " org nak jadi artis kat AF pun bersusah payah, kena practice , kena kutuk, ni jadi Doctor, obviously kena kerja lagi kuat". hehehe. compare dgn org AF.comel je.

and so my friends yg mungkin tgh stressed pasal exam, relax2.stressing out is emotionally draining. buat penat je.

bila stress, call ur mum. borak2 so that you'll remember your mission.and all those ppl who behind the scene who have supported you, who have all been holding the banner "we blieve in you!!. you can do it!"

if they believe in you, why cant you believe in yourself??!

and believing je isnt enough, it has to come with usaha, with effort. and when you da cuba usaha habis2an what is left is doa and tawakal.

n ohh bila stress, cuba baca AlQuran. sbb AlQuran tu kan penerang hati.

salam exam??!
ain norman yg sedang dlm cabaran puasa FB oleh faiz